It took me a very long time to understand how important it is to heal yourself. Whether it’s healing from a troubled past, childhood trauma, or even heartbreak, we must heal. Holding on to all that pain can cause one to become void of emotions and very distant. Here I’m speaking from experience. I want to share my story on how I’m choosing to heal myself so I can help reach someone in need. I want you to understand how healing your mind, body, and soul can bring such peace and harmony into your life.
As you know by now I’m very big on meditation and chakra healing, so with that being said once I started that journey I realized how broken I was as a person. Through meditating I realized how much pain I had been holding in and how it’s affecting my life.
Growing up I wasn’t shown love, now don’t get me wrong I knew I was loved but I didn’t come from a family that showed affection. I didn’t receive hugs and I love you’s. I wasn’t the special one, so I went out of my way to please people just so I could feel something.
My past was incredibly challenging and having to hold stuff in so I don’t hurt anyone’s feelings became a part of me. After being hurt for so many years by people I loved, it caused me to close myself off. I would show no feelings or emotions and built a wall so thick no one could penetrate it. I was tired of being hurt, used, and neglected so I became a heartless person.
As I started getting older I noticed it more, like how when I’m trying to pursue a relationship. I was never shown love so I don’t know how to return it and it’s caused major problems in my life.
But here’s the good thing, when I finally admitted to myself that I had a problem that’s when the healing process began. I’m still learning how to love, express, and accept myself and it’s a tough journey but in order for me to receive and give love, I have to first heal myself. I have to rid myself of the negative talk that’s been embedded into my subconscious so that I can finally be the woman that God wants me to be.
I’m healing and it’s been tough but it also has been amazing. I finally know my worth and that I’m capable of love and being loved. So please, if you are going through anything and need healing, meditate and learn about chakras, it is doing wonders in my life.
I leave you with love, peace, positivity, and happiness. Namaste!